~Friday, February 25, 2011
~Wednesday, February 23, 2011
~Monday, February 21, 2011
- Zac Brown Band got their start there, playing there for years before anybody heard of them.
- They give a free shot to the entire bar every Friday at 6 o'clock.
- Anytime you mention the joint, someone has a really good story that happened there. The trouble with really good stories is that they often don't come from positive experiences. I know a guy who was stabbed in the parking lot with a drunk guy's car key. He thought his side hurt after the belligerent guy attacked him, so he covered his side with his hand, and his finger slipped into the stab hole. Ack. Another guy I know told me he used to go there when he first moved to the city and didn't know any better and he was approached by a pimp and the ugliest prostitutes he's even seen in his life.
Love, Sarah at 12:00 PM|
~Saturday, February 19, 2011
Love, Sarah at 12:32 PM|
~Friday, February 18, 2011
Love, Sarah at 11:07 AM|
~Thursday, February 17, 2011
~Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Flashback once again to that phone conversation with Harvey the night I got dumped.
"I wish I was more like Katie," I sniffed. "Guys seem to be more attracted to her energy."
"What do you like about her?" she asked.
"She's so even keeled. She never lets on that she's annoyed or angry. The minute I become unsatisfied, I announce it. It causes problems."
"There's nothing wrong with admiring a trait in other people and trying to replicate it in your own life," she said. Her voice became softer, "Maybe if you became more logical like Katie, you wouldn't get hurt so much."
Her words were meant to soothe me. Harvey, a person also ruled by logic, was trying to help me find a logical solution in her logical way. But instead it incited an emotional reaction within me.
I don't feel that my goal in life is to hurt less. I would rather take the hurt and the pain and the rejection if it meant I could also have the good things: the love and the joy and the acceptance. I believe that because I am a person who is so in touch with her feelings, I am able to love more freely than the logical person. And I would never ever wish that away.
And Katie is not without her own problems. It isn't my story to tell, but the best I can share is that she has the exact opposite problem that I have. Whereas I feel like I am too much of a personality, she feels like she isn't enough of one. She can feel anxious in social situations, hence the drinking her face off and passing out in the bar bathroom when Schmoozer initially showed interest in her.
Not to mention that I already tried the experiment of emulating the friends. I spent a week trying to be like Harvey and it blew up in my face.
I was silent on the other end of the phone with Harvey. I never responded to her "Maybe... you wouldn't get hurt so much." But I knew the answer and it surprised the hell out of me: I would rather love messily than not at all. I'd rather have my problems than somebody else's. I've never felt that way before.
So give me the heartbreak and all the pain that comes with it. Give me the tears and the running mascara and the splotchy face. Because you don't get that way if you haven't invested yourself and loved.
Love, Sarah at 12:04 PM|
~Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Love, Sarah at 11:38 AM|
~Monday, February 14, 2011
Love, Sarah at 11:02 AM|
~Wednesday, February 09, 2011
~Tuesday, February 08, 2011
- The asexual group I once complained about is no longer asexual. Schmoozer and Katie are now dating, so is Government Mule and Jenna. I'm very happy for all parties involved, but now the entire group is coupled up with each other, save for me, Swayze, and Mel. The singles are outnumbered 6 to 3. Feels lonely, let me tell you.
- Girl dramz! It's a very long and complicated story that would require a Venn diagram, but Harvey and I lost a friend this week. I'm not too much bothered by the individual loss because it doesn't affect my day-to-day life, but Harvey's feelings are hurt. Moreover lines have been drawn and sides have been chosen. Harvey and I have each other and our central group of friends, but I have lost 2 other circles of friends, including my knitting group. I had a great un-friending on Facebook and had to delete 10 girls.
Love, Sarah at 3:17 PM|
~Sunday, February 06, 2011
Super Bowl starts in a half hour and I'm not making any pretense that I'm going to watch it. Instead I found a Red Box this morning and inserted my credit card and rented enough movies to last me through the day.
If you have a blog, or even just a Facebook profile, go out immediately and rent Catfish. It's a documentary about a New York photographer named Nev who is befriended by an 8-year-old Michigan painter named Abby. Abby is so inspired by Nev's photographs that she begins to paint them, and with the help of her mother, sends them to Nev. Through Facebook Nev eventually befriends Abby's entire family, including her half-sister Megan, with whom he falls in love. It's a twisted and completely true story.
The reason I think it's a fascinating film is because it addresses the nature of online identities. Both blogs and Facebook profiles are subjective self-portraits: the author controls what information is released. Most people aren't going to post pictures of what they look like when they wake up in the morning, and most stories written aren't going to catalogue that time they sat on the couch and ate Lays while watching The Biggest Loser. It's a unconscious best foot forward. It's who you want to be. Some people are just more open than others.
And if you've seen the movie, I'm a total catfish.
Love, Sarah at 5:56 PM|
~Wednesday, February 02, 2011
Love, Sarah at 3:41 PM|
~Tuesday, February 01, 2011
Love, Sarah at 4:22 PM|