~Tuesday, June 16, 2009

The Waiting Game

It's official, Scott is in rehab. He arrogantly called me.

"I need to know if you're going to wait for me to complete the year-long program. You said you wouldn't talk to me unless I get help, and now I am."

I involuntarily laughed. He was locked up from the outside world and still thought so much of himself that he could continue to order me around. I opened my mouth to tell him not only was I not going to wait for him, but I had already started running around town kissing boys, but I thought better of it. I still had to remind myself that I wasn't safe around him and he doesn't need to know most details about me, including where I work, where I live, and who I hang out with.

He was acting like because he spent half a week in rehab, attended one AA meeting and met his counselor, he was all better. He never even said anything sincere about me; it was all about him. And he didn't just make these "you owe me" calls to me, he had also made them to his family. I am slowly learning through therapy (and A&'E's Intervention) that even if Scott quits drinking, it doesn't even tackle the deep-rooted problems of lying and manipulating. It was helping me to see that things are truly over and there will be no future for us. Period.

And this isn't even addressing the bloody noses I've suffered at his hands.

"No, Scott. I will not wait for you." There, it was finally said.

"Well... I love you and I'm going to work on myself now."

"You do that."




Anonymous said...

Yay! I'm proud of you.. even though I'm just a blog lurker.

Anonymous said...

you go girl!

Beth said...

I'm another lurker. I haven't commented recently as really there isn't much I could say that wouldn't sound horribly trite given the circumstances.

I think you're doing the right thing by moving on with your life. I could throw in some old cliche about leopards and spots, but I think you know that one already.

The important thing at the moment is just to focus on making yourself happy.

Lisa Chelle said...

I am so proud of you. Way to stand up for you. Problems or not, underneath it all, Scott was an ass... and rehab can't fix that.

k_stin said...

Good job! You did it!

Erin said...

I'm proud of you! Good job seeing his (continual) lies.

Lauri said...

Yeah!! I'm happy for ya - sounds like you are over him and now you can get on with the good stuff your life has to offer!! Good for you!

Soup said...

Beautifully done Sarah. You are on the right track.


Lpeg said...

Good for you. I am glad you are seeing Scott for who he really is. You are definitely on the right track :)

Amanda Braz said...

Hey! I'm proud of you too! :)
I've been reading your blog for over an year but never commented, don't really know why. You're an amazing writer and it shocked me to see the monster Scott became.
I hope he stops contacting you. I hope that if he has to contact you again, its to say sorry and you'll simply accept and tell him to move on.
Be careful, ok?

SuvvyGirl said...

Good call not giving details to him. You handled that in the best possible way!! Very proud!

gekkogirl said...

Sarah, I just want to send you a great big hug. And lots of love. xxx

Anonymous said...

Go Sarah Go!

nuttycow said...

Good on you Sarah - hang on in there.

AmyB said...

Damn. If someone only read this post, it would seem like a pretty easy close to that door, huh? However, it's taken sooooo much to get to this point. But you're here now. I'm so proud of you and hopeful that he gets the help he needs.

MamaBear said...

I am really proud of you.

Paige Jennifer said...

(throws laptop off lap, stands to feet and offers a standing ovation)

Felt pretty good to stand up for yourself, no? Get used to it, girl, and welcome to the new and improved you - just as amazing and beautiful as before but better (like that could even be possible).


Time Traveller said...

'you know we're over right?'

That's what he said a few weeks ago wasn't it. What a wanker.

Well done for sticking up for yourself.

Colleen said...

Holy cow. Good for you! Be strong.


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