~Tuesday, October 05, 2010

Last Firsts

The first day of my senior year of college, I illegally parked at the Baptist student union and headed towards North campus where my college of arts and sciences was located. Being an English major was easy: I no longer had to pay for text books—all of my required reading could be checked out from the library. There were no cram sessions for finals because no one was going to re-read a novel. Scantrons and number-2 pencils had been traded for blue books: college-ruled sheets of paper stapled together with a cheap blue cover. I pressed the button to illuminate the pedestrian crosswalk, and took a deep breath. "This is my last first day of school," I thought.

I remember that moment clearly because I repeated it the first day of second semester too, only this time my truck got towed for parking illegally and my last semester of college actually took 3 semesters to complete, so I had a whole slew of last first days.

The little ritual I play with myself has carried on. Only now I'm standing in the mirror making sure my hair is acceptable. Then I pick up the lip gloss from the counter and apply it before one last inspection. "This could be my last first date," I think. I've had a whole slew of last first dates as well.

And I'll be thinking it again tomorrow night before my date from Plenty of Fish.

10 comments:

Curvy Jones said...

I think that all the time, too. That it could be my last first date.

TC said...

I've never had that thought.

Odd.

prettylittletangents said...

ooh la la! i love that getting ready for a first date feeling with the good/nervous butterfiles and all the "what ifs". have a wonderful time!

breezyallatsea said...

I think that too! And I hope it is for you!

Bathwater said...

Yeh, keep saying the same thing when ever I get a tooth pulled but I keep going back for the pain killers.

Just kidding, good luck and have fun on your date we need some new fodder here. Ooops just kidding about the fodder too :).

J said...

Good luck and I expect a full report!

nuttycow said...

Have fun - looking forward to hearing more!

Me said...

I always think that's a very American way of thinking about dating. Being from Europe, we have a tendency to not take it quite so serious...However, I did that too for a while, but then lost the thought again. Didn't work for me to go in meeting everyone thinking that he might be "the one". I would just go in thinking "let's have a good time." Makes it easier :)

cornflakegirl74 said...

I've never thought of it that way, but it's definitely worth a shot. I hope you have a fantastic time with him and do report back! If that date went realllly well, you might cancel tonight's altogether ;)

Tex In The City said...

I hope you had a great time.

 

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