~Thursday, September 07, 2006

Of Bruised Faiths

E just called me crying.

Blind date #7 just rejected her. This time he sent her an e-mail minutes before they were supposed to meet and he basically said that he's already dating someone and doesn't feel right going on more dates because he feels that's cheating.

Well he should have fucking not asked for the date the night before then.

Seven was supposed to be her lucky number. I read statistically that one out of every seven blind dates actually goes well. It looks like date #7 will have to wait for the next guy. If there's a next guy. One can only take so much rejection in two months.

My heart breaks for her. It's put me into a somber mood as I sit at my keyboard and pound away like I usually do when I'm upset.

But what about me?

Yeah I can be selfish like that. But what about me?

I'm... I feel like I'm close to greatness. Adam or no Adam. Even if he wasn't in the picture, I feel like I'm so close to something great. And I don't know what it is. But it's near me and I can feel it's low electrical whir.

I'm grateful that in all my years of dating, I've only been not asked for a second date once. There are desirables about me: I've got a quick draw intellect and have stories that will have you pissing yourselves in hysterics, all wrapped up in a cute package.

Starting now, as "To Sheila" by Smashing Pumpkins plays on my speakers, I'm going to do something I've never done before. I'm going to believe in myself.

And you know what Vince? I'm going to jump.

Lately I just can't seem to believe
Discard my friends to change the scenery
It meant the world to hold a bruising faith
But now it's just a matter of grace


Gabriel K. said...

Statistics=Crap. There's margin for error -/+ 100%.

All kidding aside, he was probably playing the field and decided that the other girl was a better choice. Was there talk about being exclusive? Guys, go figure.

Has "Eve" found her Adam? Will Adam prove her wrong? I can't wait for the outcome.

Anonymous said...

All this talk about dating, and bad luck makes me nervous as I am about to actually go forth and be single again. Knowing me my luck will resemble hers closer than yous lol.

brea said...

To Sheila is my absolute favourite Smashing Pumpkins song! :)

On a side note, tell your friend she's not alone... I've pretty much given up on happily ever after. :(

Phil said...

The ol' I'm not cheating but just looking around in case there is someone "better" out there.

Are we men that shallow.


Sarah said...

Phil- you're killing me here. I'm trying to have faith, not get drunk and start making booty calls. ;)

Vince said...


I'm excited for you - I have my fingers crossed, I'm smiling in anticipation, I'm taking a deep breath. Go!

Miss Natalie said...

one in every seven dates work out?!?!? But, Isn't there the whole 7 year itch thing? We'll never win!

Sweetie, you must beleive in your self or noone else will :-)

Phil said...

What Miss Natalie said.


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