You're so pretty when you're faithful to me

The next night Scott came out with me to my usual Friday night haunt. He was meeting two of the most trusted people in my life: my best friend Mel and my coworker N.

We sat down at the table and Scott immediately took the blame for us showing up late. It wasn't entirely his fault, but he didn't want me to get into trouble. It was a kind gesture. Then he leaned across the table towards Mel, "To make it up to you for being late, how about you and I sing a song together?" Mel smiled and immediately warmed up to the evening.

My nerves, on the other hand, were shot. I ordered the fishbowl margarita and clapped when the giant drink was placed in front of me. It came with four straws, presumably because it has enough tequila in it for four people, but I happily sipped out of the one straw. Tequila for four would surely keep me preoccupied for most of the night.

Or for about an hour or so.

The next round of drinks came around and N's lesbian wife frowned at her Jack and Coke. Scott picked up the drink and frowned as well.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"It's not made very well," he said. "Let me go fix this," and Scott got up from the table and walked through the bar with the drink. I smiled proudly at his initiative.

Let me know when you start sleeping with someone else increasingly began to sound like a dumbass statement. My own words screamed at me in my own head.

I leaned forward to the table, "Y'all, I think I made a mistake."

"What did you do?"

I told them the story of the night before and how I turned down his offer. Both girls yelled at me, "Sarah! You didn't!"

"Yup. I think I should correct this."

"You need to. Immediately."

So when Scott sat back down--the new drink was on its way--I tugged at his sleeve, "I changed my mind."

"About what?"

"I changed my mind."

"I don't know what you're talking about."

Ugh, he was going to make me say it. Instead I skirted around it as best as I could, "You know, monogamy."

"Okay," and he leaned in and kissed me.

"It's just, I saw you with my friends, and... you know... you were so awesome to them..."

"Hey, you don't have to justify it to me," and he leaned in and kissed me again.

And I gave Scott my singledom.