~Monday, April 11, 2011

Oh.

Last night I stepped out of a shower that wasn't mine and wrapped myself in a towel that wasn't mine. I walked into the carpeted hallway of a townhome I had never been in before and stood dripping over two piles of clothes. I was shaking, my nerves no longer able to be contained.

What have I done?

He appeared and grabbed his boxer briefs from the pile. "I'll just give you a minute," he said.

"That would be nice," I squeaked.

What have I done? And where do I begin?

35 comments:

prettylittletangents said...

Wow - I'm shaking for you. I hope you're okay, Sweetie.

Bathwater said...

The beginning would have been nice now we are all going to be waiting with baited breath.

Syd said...

Ohhhh. Hope you are okay. That's a terrible feeling.

Lpeg said...

Are you alright? Was it good enough to be worth it?

Thisisme said...

sitting on the edge of my seat!

I hope you're alright!

Sarah said...

Oh yes! I am safe and alright. Just emotionally scattered.

preciousandpriceless said...

no regrets. as long as you are okay and nothing bad happened beyond your okay....live life with no regrets.

Soph said...

Is this someone you shouldn't have slept with?

I agree no regrets, everything happens for a reason!

Anonymous said...

I agree that everything happens for a reason, but for most of my mistakes, that reason was that I just flat out screwed up. No destiny at play or deep meaning bedhind my screw ups. Just everyday, ordinary, human nature screw ups, and that's okay. When I panic and feel like it's not, I remember all those screw ups I thought would haunt me that I rarely think about these days, and then it's okay again. Bottom line, if this is the worst mistake you ever make, you'll be doing good, right?

Me said...

Dude. A bit more info please ;)

soupemes said...

Hmm... is this a mistake? Could this actually be the start of something positive?

x

freckledk said...

Was this someone you know? I'm getting the feeling it's someone you know, but were surprised to be in that situation with.

Hope it was a good surprise.

Jennifer said...

My guess? Date rape. It was only a matter of time. That being said, if this is true you need to report it to the police. And stop bloody drinking so much. And if it's not, this emotionally over-wrought post that leaves readers hanging is plain cruel. Especially when you are intimating that you have been in some way harmed. Blech!

Sane Kate said...

Jennifer, date rape was 'only a matter of time'? My god, read a feminist book or three thousand why don't you and get a clue.

Anyway, I'm guessing Kickball Guy or Government Mule.

Lauri said...

Jennifer - please don't "guess" when you have no idea what you're talking about....you think Sarah's post on her own personal blog is cruel? I'm thinking jumping to conclusions and passing judgement on someone's character based on a blog entry is cruel....feel free to move along to a more "palatable" blog...I doubt anyone will miss you....

Tracy said...

My guess is Valdosta! He was too good to be gone forever.

Gretta James said...

sounds interesting

Anonymous said...

Hoping it's not Kickball guy or Government Mule...or any of your long term ex boyfriends, but instead one of the random men you were flirting with in your recent podt.

I would totally be cheering for you if it was even Valdosta.

But no Scott...no bad exes pls.

Maura said...

Jennifer - you are wrong on so many levels, and I've tried to eloquently put together a response that demonstrates this, but all I could really come up with was - Who the fuck do you think you are?

I tried though, I really did.

J said...

Oh the suspense! And I second Maura's comment to Jennifer.

Kim said...

Ditto Maura's comment as well.

Dave said...

I think Jennifer's comment is warranted. Not to defend her, it was a bit harsh, but I don't she was JUDGING Sarah. It's not a matter of feminism. It's simply an interpretation of the post. It's cryptic and disturbing. That's just her take. Some of us have weirder imaginations than others. She's "shaking" and naked, and well what the fu** are people supposed to think? She's "dates around" A LOT, not that that matters, writes a public blog about it and they y'all jump all up to defend her when she's standing naked in a strange place with a dude. If you sit in the barber's chair long enough, you are going to get a haircut! And I agree with the poster, they DO DRINK A LOT. So that's probably involved. Let's wait and see. Sooooo, if the shoe fits! And I am not in any way shape or form saying that I think this IS the case, but I would not be surprised. It's just a theory and if it's true, it's of course HORRIBLE. I have been reading her blog for a while, have read all of it, in fact. I am a dude. In fact, I think we have met. She is never going to find love this way. Is this not clear to all of you? Just recently, I think she was coming, finally, to this conclusion on her own. Anyway, I hope she is ok and I hope it's Valdosta. That would be cool but man, this girl never learns. Maybe it's the guy who shat in her car. Lol, Hope not. It's a known fact that people with low self-esteem attract the dysfunction of others. I wish her well. I really do and y'all need to chill yer shite.

Kim said...

I think the issue is the wording "it was only a matter of time" was way over the top. Is the new saying "death, taxes and date rape?" She puts herself out there, yes. Good for us. It doesnt mean somethings are not cruel to say.

Je m'appelle Danielle said...

Ugh the suspense! There is nothing going on in my life, dish girl, DISH!!

Dave said...

Agree with Kim, "it was only a matter of time" was a pretty poorly chosen turn of phrase. But still, I am sure that's not what she meant. I mean, whether you realize it or not, meeting up with COMPLETE STRANGERS from the internet is friggin' dangerous. Let's just hope all is well and she gets back here soon and tells what went down. I also hope she is ok. It sounded awful whatever happened. :-/

Anonymous said...

I never comment on posts on any page but feel compelled to say something after reading the comments. It appears there are a group who feel that "it's a matter of time" before a woman who "dates around alot" and "drinks" is date raped.

I'm assuming the writer reads these comments and will read the cruel and frankly sexist comments.

I'm clearly not sure what happened, sounds like it was something emotionally jarring but physically safe. I've read the blog for a long time and Sarah appears to be a kind and loved person searching for romantic love in the same way millions of singles in their late 20's do. Also if a man had written this exact post not one of the "matter of time" posts would have been made.

Sarah- I say you are a brave soul out there looking for love just like everyone else. Stay strong.

J said...

I want, no I need to know more! That said I hope you are ok. *hugs*

Je m'appelle Danielle said...

@Dave, in regards to your last comment, it is 2011, dating has evolved from meeting people by way of friends/family connections to internet dating. Its quite a normal thing, especially in larger cities.

Besides, its not like she is meeting people in abandoned dark alleys. Internet dating could potentially be dangerous if you meet someone in secluded areas or haven't gotten to know one another enough. However, that goes for any person, anyway you meet them.

Anonymous said...

There is nothing wrong with random sex it does happen. You will be fine. Hugs.

Angela said...

I'm pretty much a "good girl" who is in her mid-thirties and is still single. I didn't care so much about it when I was younger, but now, I'm wondering whether or not I would have met the right person (or a right person, for a significant amount time - like several years), had I planted my butt in one of several places I've avoided, like a bar, in the hopes of missing out on those who only wanted casual sex. I get ogled, but nobody asks for my number - I'm isolated, but when I go out, that's what happens to me. One guy stuck around after I smiled at him, as we had a misunderstanding, but then I froze (shyness), and nothing came of it. Unfortunately, I've come across the ones who say they want love, and then go chasing after exactly what they say they don't want.

Re: safety. You can run into dangerous douchebags in person, anywhere. My mother met one in a pub, when he had noticed her and came up to help her in regards to another man who wouldn't leave her alone. That guy almost killed me - said that he loved my mother, but he couldn't be a father to us (after he'd had his hands around my throat, when he'd put me in the situation that had me screaming in terror). She met three more douchebags - one actual sociopath, she met at a dance - before getting back together with my father. I've been ultra careful, because of men like that, and met the person who spun my life and my self-esteem upside down, when I'd been feeling good about myself, happy, and looking forward to my future.

Dream in Grey said...

Wow - these comments have left me nearly speechless. I hope you're ok with the comments Sarah and clearly if anything terrible had happened you would have been elsewhere not blogging abut it.

Haters to the left!

Me said...

Whoa people!

"Meeting people off the internet is plain dangerous".

Let me count the ways I have "met people off the internet"...I dated just as much as Sarah did and most of them were "off the internet". Some of my best friends are fellow bloggers "off teh internet" who I met some day...

And I think folks need to remember that this is the blogger's space and that we completely control WHAT we put out and HOW we write it. Sarah is a smart cookie, she knows exactly what she is doing and what she puts on her blog :)

beth said...

You have to be careful in this day and age. I used to go out to bars but felt violated when men - filthy, scum, dirty men - would look at me from across the room. I wanted them to talk to me, but I didn't want them to touch me. Why can't it be how it used to be, safe and platonic? I know all they want to do is stick their filthy cocks where they are not wanted. I want a man, I want a man to talk to, but the thought of his vile touch makes me dry heave. So I stopped going out. Maybe next year I'll be ready.

- Beth

Annie said...

^ Troll Alert

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