Desperate Sarah, you're so silly!

One of my best friends from college called me up at 7 on NYE and tells me he's having a party and I'm invited. Just because I decided to not go out on a date doesn't mean I have to stay at home, right? I left the house within 20 minutes after the call.

The party was wonderful. All of my old friends from college were there, some dear ones I haven't seen in years. It was just like old times. I can't remember the last time I was that happy, which goes to show that having a man isn't everything. I gave one up and I got the party instead. Best. Decision. Ever.

The beer is flowing, the alcohol is pouring, and everyone is smiling. I know everyone at the party from one point or another of my college career and they are all here in this room with me. It's heaven.

The countdown begins: 10, 9, 8. I didn't even realize the time. It's time to pair up to kiss and I'm not worried because all my friends are here and I can just kiss them. Then Bryan heads towards me. Bryan is roommates with the guy who invited me here. I've been flirting with Bryan for years and have never yielded any results from it. 3, 2, 1: Bryan kisses me. And kisses me some more. Leans me against the wall and full on makes out with me.

I eventually made my way around the room, but what a hell of a New Year's kiss! I'm talking to some of our mutual friends and they say how Bryan's been really into me all night, but I just didn't notice. The alcohol makes all the details fuzzy, but somehow we end up in his room and we're kissing, and 4 people walk in. And stay for hours. The party had been moved into his room.

It took awhile for everyone to leave, by then it was really early in the morning, around 4 am. Bryan and I made out the rest of the night until we passed out in pure exhaustion.

I would love to tell you some moral how, by closing a door on one opportunity (CB,) a window opened (Bryan,) but it's not like that. At least not now. When I left in the morning I didn't wake him or even write down my number. If he wants to contact me, he can do so through his roommate, but I don't expect him to. All we did was kiss, and there's nothing wrong with that.

CB called me the next day and asked if I woke up naked next to some guy. I lied. He doesn't need to know, we only went out on one date. I think he's upset with me for saying I was going to stay in and then I ended up at a party. Whatevs, I'm just not that into him.