~Tuesday, December 04, 2007

For Me

I met Scott exactly two weeks since I had ended things with Jack. In those two weeks I concentrated on making myself happy to try to repair what shreds of self-esteem I had left. Shopping became my form of therapy. I decided to redecorate my apartment, which had purposely been gender neutral in case I ever met a man. I filled it with things that would make me happy: a flowered quilt for the bed, a vase of pink roses for the night stand, a spread of candles to match the quilt and the roses, all pink. I turned my bedroom from a place a man wanted to be to where I wanted to be.

I was embarrassed that first night I took Scott home and led him into my bedroom. I thought he would see my new purchases and think less of me for not being classic. That my whimsy would come off as flippant and flighty. That it would make me any other bobble-headed blonde. He never said a word. Six months later and he has yet to make a comment about the femininity he sleeps in every night.

It's also how I met Scott. I had just ended The Worst Date Ever with a guy from the dating site on which I had signed up (I never got around to blogging about that, but I will.) It was also a Saturday afternoon and I didn't have anything to do for a few hours, so I decided to go look at scooters (of the Vespa variety, not of the I've-fallen-and-I-can't-get-up variety. And yes, it was quite a shopping binge I was going though.) I was always interested in owning a scooter since I moved to the city. Jack thought they were silly and rebuked me for wanting one. And since I was doing things that made me happy, I walked into that store and met Scott. I love that I met him while doing something for me.

The same goes for all the after-Christmas sales last year when I decorated my tree. Adam had kinda, sorta, but not really resurfaced and I was in another bout of bad dating. Only this time my attitude was a little more resigned. Instead of "me power," it was "I'm doing to die alone an old spinster and may as well enjoy it a little."

So that's my very long introduction to my tree:


Scott said it was "one pink fucking tree" at the initial sight of it, but has since admitted that I did a good job with it. The only colors on it are red, pink, white, and silver and I love it so much that Scott has caught me on more than one occasion with my head resting on the back of the couch, staring at it for no apparent reason.

How I love glitter.

17 comments:

>*;* said...

it's very pretty. I LOVE IT!

I've noticed lately I've been buying more and more pink things too.

nicole said...

i love your tree!

i love glitter too...

Tilly said...

Pretty, pretty tree! SPARKLY!! Ours is on the balcony so I say we're sharing it with our neighborhood. It's just white and silver but it has a pretty shimmery star on the top. Not that you asked.

J said...

It is fabulous! I want one...

WingWoman said...

okay, so I officially have "tree envy"...who woulda thunk?

WiscoBlonde said...

GORGEOUS!!!!

lowly peasant errand girl said...

very pretty indeed!!! it's very classy and elegant.. nice job! :)

M said...

At first I was ready to poo poo the pink tree idea but I fully take it back. I love your pink tree! It's awesome and now I want one too.

T.J. said...

Sarah! I love it! you have a knack! And what girl doesn't love pink, girly, glittery things...if she doesn't, well, that's not a girl I want to meet...

SuvvyGirl said...

It looks faboulus darling! :P I like it. I don't know you personally and have never seen you but I think it matches you quite well. Glitter is good, especially in the dimonds and stones variety. I already have trained my 4 month old daughter to love diamonds. :P

AmyD said...

That is THE cutest tree I ever did see.

F'reals. Good for you!! :o)

Oh, and I would love to know what kind of shoes those are ("The Adam Shoes") in that old post. They are freaking HOT and I'm so in the market.

Bexxie said...

Awesome tree.

I love everything glitter too!

Drama Queen said...

Oh the pretty!

treacle said...

its a lovely tree Sarah x

dont eat the token said...

It's very lovely!!!

Just last night I fell asleep on the couch, gazing at my tree with it's pretty lights and all the other lights off in the house.

I love it when ornaments have a story and yours has a very heartfelt one. :)

M-Joy said...

OK FINALLY I get to see the pictures! Way better than on the phone like before.

Adorable. Hilarious. Wonderful. I love Scott more and more every day!!

general_boy said...

Oh Crikey! The tree! ( adds to ridiculously long "to do" list ).

 

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